![]() One was complete potato-couch-blanket-burrito, justifying how I am going through a lot and therefore I deserve the rest. The reason this comes up every year is that I still unknowingly put too much pressure on myself on the days I don’t do anything that I consider beneficially productive.Īnd this year saw two ridiculous extremes. And the pressure of how one thing needs to go perfectly, for the rest to go smoothly, was promptly disregarded. How can you let one thing, one person, one problem, one moment, ruin everything else you have worked so hard to keep going for yourself? How is that fair to you?Īnd so, I do love early morning routines, but the days I don’t get up early doesn’t mean anything. ![]() Just because one person ruined your mood or a situation turned out badly, that doesn’t mean you let the rest of your day and environment be ruined. Just because one thing doesn’t go your way doesn’t mean you let the rest of the time go wasted on regret. Which obviously was a bad way to go about living. Like I couldn’t have a good day unless I had a good, calming start. So, the days I couldn’t get up early, I self-inflicted underserved dread and guilt. ![]() Because I was trying so hard to hold on to that state of calm, I made myself feel bad about the days I wasn’t able to have that. And almost vital.Ĭonsidering I was going through a series of mental anguish, I became heavily dependent on mornings like those. But just enjoying the cold, crispy morning air, the quiet of the world, the process of making coffee, and cozying back into bed to watch BTS In The Soop or read a book- made it so incredibly therapeutic. Not doing anything life-altering or super productive like working out, meditating, and what-not. I now realized that some of the more memorable early mornings I have had were the ones where I got 1-2 extra hours to myself. The actual meaning of the line has also taught me an invaluable lesson on coping mechanisms.
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